I hope Joe doesn't know about this site. If he does, well, screw it. For those who don't know (and may possibly care the tiniest bit), I have quit the adult worship team. I have several reasons for doing so, but don't worry. This isn't going to turn into an overblown list like the villains. For overblown (and boy, do I mean overblown) lists, visit my xanga site @ www.xanga.com/gunslingersai .
Anyway, I'm mostly glad, partly sad about leaving. Mostly glad because it seems like we lonely musicians are being swept into the gutter to give the choir more air time. Is this a bad thing? Is it good? I'm not the one to judge that, really. All I know is that I personally don't like it, and would rather not deal with it. I am saddened that I will no longer get to thump on my bass and set the groove with Johnny or back up David's phenomenal keyboard skills. I miss the days when all the singers and musicians would sit and chat and pray. I felt more connected then, even though I am not one to connect with much of anyone. I miss the days when I could clearly define who the leader of the worship team was. I miss the days when I didn't know the rumors, even though they were still there. But the world has moved on since then. Is it a bad thing? Is it a good thing? A wise woman once said:
"You can not stop change anymore than you can stop the suns from setting" - Shmi Skywalker.
Whatever. Joe didn't seem too heartbroken over my decision, not that I was expecting him to be. Besides, I've been kind of a nuisance lately when it comes to respecting authority (not necessarily Joe). I think the one BIG tip off that things were never going to be the same was when one of the choir members was praying to dismiss a practice and he said the following words (not exact quote, but pretty darn near):
"Lord, I pray that you bless this choir minsitry..."
Suddenly, I was filled with understanding. We were no longer a worship team, we were a band backing a choir. At least, that's my interpretation. I don't really know if that's what he meant, or if it was just a small part of the kind of rambling, talkative, prayer our church specializes in (the kind that just keeps going, and going, and going, and going, and ends about 10-23 minutes later...but that's a different rant). Anyway, I don't hate the choir on a personal level. Any and all complaints stem from a professional degree of criticism...or something. But whatever. If anyone feels like commenting on this, by all means, let me know what you think, Patty, John, Johnny (if you're out there, I'm thinking of you...). Whatever, I need to start practice.