Christmas Feelings

It’s been a mix of emotions.  We,  er, I spent most of the early part of the month wraped up in the Christmas Program at church. Now that that’s out of the way, it’s time for all of the parties.  tuesday was church staff dinner, dinner for clear channel at the festival of lights, yesterday was our office party, tonight is the worship team dinner, tommrow is sonnie’s graduation party/christmas party.  I made reservations on the calendar already for a day off on sunday.  All of these events have great intentions but it’s just way to much to do.  I found myself being consumed in the motions not being able feel the emotions.  Patti gave me my christmas present early last night and we went to see Glenn Beck’s stage show, “the christmas sweater”  now.. i’ve been a fan of glenns since around the time of 9-11 when we had him on our AM station, KVNS.  He had a sarcastic humor about himself that really made sense.  kind of like arroon, except glenn had convictions.. well not to say that arron doesn’t.. but this guy has really deep convictions.   He’s never been shy about his christianity or letting the rest of the free world know about it.

Anyway back to the show, i’ve seen other christmas shows of his, but this was totally different.  an orchestra, singing, videos, snow… their was a few monents when i was trying to descretly wipe my eyes only to notice everyone else doing the same.  I’m not going to ruin any of it for you.. your just going to have to read it yourself.. but i left their with a different perspective.  a rememerance of my past christmas’.  of the times i’ve had with my family.  of driving to the ranch from bryan.  of the smell of my grandma’s cooking and my grandpa’s aftershave.  even of my dad dressed up in a santa costume for my sister and i.

i have the chance now to have these memories with my own stepkids.  my own wife.. in our own home.  memories that we’re going to have to make together.